Out of the mouth of babes...

  Quite possibly in life you've heard someone talk about their "wake up" moment. A moment where something figuratively knocks you upside the head and causes you to realize what you are, or not doing. A couple of days ago, i had mine. it hit me so hard that i haven't been able to shake it. The moment has crossed my mind at least once the last couple of days. I'll tell the story in a moment, but first I'll give a little background about what has been going on.

  I have been back slidden since around November of last year. I've only been to church once or twice since then. I don't pray, i don't read my Bible, my children have heard me say and have seen me do things that I swore as a young man I would never let my children experience because I knew what it felt like as a child. To be quite frank about it, I'm ashamed of myself for this, but anyhow on to my " wake up" moment.

  Me and my family were sitting in the den watching a movie. During the entire movie, my kids ( being kids) continually bombarded me with questions. Finally after losing my patience I jokingly said, " Lord, take me now". My son, Alex, broke into tears and cried, " Daddy, don't say that!"

  It really messed me up on the inside. Why? Because i know he wasn't just saying that due to the thought of losing his dad. He knows that my soul would be in danger of spending an eternity in hell. I've known that  for a while, but now I SEE it, because of my child.

  It's time to change my life, I've got to. Not just for my own soul, but for theirs.

                                                                                     Thank you for your prayers,
                                                                                                                  Josh