Brokenness

And he beheld them, and said, What is this then that is written, The stone which the builders rejected, the same is become the head of the corner? Whosoever shall fall upon that stone shall be broken; but on whomsoever it shall fall, it will grind him to powder.
Luke 20:17‭-‬18 KJV

Until recently I thought I knew a thing or two about what it means to be broken. But I was wrong, seriously wrong. I was living my life by the old adage, "I'll do everything I can and let God handle the rest". If you want a fine lesson in humility and becoming humble, I invite you to try it this way.

I've always been the type of man that takes pride in taking care of my family, making sure they had what they needed. I thought I had it all under control. That was the problem, I thought I had control. I'd been living like everything my family had was because of my works.

The last two months something changed this view on life, this foolish pride I had. No matter how hard I worked, needs weren't being met. I couldn't get it done and that was a problem.

I got down, why couldn't I fix things? What was I doing wrong? I've been doing my job, I haven't been wasteful, what was the deal?

I wasn't broken before Him, I wasn't trusting Him. I trusted in me. I had no choice now but to be broken, every time I looked my family in the face I felt it. Every time the phone rang from the mortgage company, I felt the helplessness. It brought me to the place where I finally realized I had to let it all go, let everything go. Nothing I could do would fix this.

I had to fall upon my face and be broken before Him, and that's what I did. I gave it all, everything to God. I didn't ask him for anything. I just had to let Him know that all my trust was in Him. Everything is starting to right itself, and I've had no control or done anything myself. This killed my pride, but that's not a bad thing. That's what needed to happen. It had to happen. I am grateful for this.

Fall upon Him and be broken. Don't learn the hard way like me. God bless!